When you move "on" from something, in my mind, you leave what you are moving "on" from, behind. I choose to move forward. Moving "forward" allows you to carry things with you. It's not getting rid of anything, it's just changing your perspective, your position, to something different. It's seeing things in a different way, in a different light. Sometimes it's all you can do. Sometimes you just don't have a choice! Sometimes the choice is made for you, and sometimes you have to come to the hard choice. In any situation, you can choose to move "on", or you can choose to move "forward". I'm choosing forward.
I've thought long and hard about what I can do to occupy this place in my heart that lives to love children. I haven't come up with anything yet. There are changes on the horizon for our family though... maybe God is waiting to show me His plan, until these changes come to fruition and we settle into our new normal. All I know is.... God is moving. He is moving in my heart, and in my life. He is moving in our family. That is pretty exciting.
The kids are starting back to school this week. Cameron will be starting 7th grade - junior high.... with schedules, moving classes, a locker... all the things that junior high has to offer! Anna is starting 2nd grade - second grade with learning cursive, lots of spelling tests and getting older and maturing. My little Sara Joy - she is moving up to the 2K room. No more cribs, those have been swapped out for mats at nap time. She'll have new teachers to adjust to and a new schedule to get used to. Changes are happening all over at our house.
Fall is in the air - ok, admittedly, we live in SC, so fall is not in the air here yet temperature wise, but the fall schedule is in the air. Pretty soon we will have football games to attend on Friday nights, Clemson football games, Monday night football, college football (ugghh - it's all about football, isn't it???). Tim, Cameron and Anna are going to head up to a Clemson game and then camp out for a night. It's best to camp out in the fall or spring here, as in the summer it's just too hot! I'm not a big fan of tents, public bathroom, public showers or spiders - so Sara and I will stay home while they do that outing. We'll take another trip up to the cabin to see the beautiful fall colors changing in North Carolina, pick up apple cider and take long walks in the mountains. Rhubarb pie... am I the only person in the world who likes rhubarb pie? It's my favorite. I make a mean Yankee Apple Pie too - fall is a good time for that.
Sometimes moving forward is hard. It's letting go of what you thought would be... but it can be grabbing onto what is to come as well. Here's to something good coming that I can grab on to.