Tomorrow is Wednesday. We leave on Saturday. I haven't packed...in fact, I'm putting off everything related to packing. Tim wants to run to CV$ to get the last minute "travel" things we need. I don't want to do it. I HATE packing!!! Have I ever mentioned that before??? I seriously dislike the task of packing everything that you will need, up in a bag and figuring out once you get there, what you forgot. Me, I pack at the last minute and usually don't forget anything real important. Tim probably has hives because he has not started packing yet.
I'm getting anxious. I'm kinda scared and super excited all at the same time. I remember the feeling distinctly from when I traveled to pick up Anna. I actually remember the same feeling the days before I had Cameron. The feeling of... I'm so excited I can hardly believe it. This is what I have waited for, for so very long... followed promptly by - this is a LIFE, her LIFE. She is not a doll you pick up at a store, she is a child. A 17 month old child. She won't know me and probably won't like me. I'm scared!
I'm sure she will be scared as well, and that makes me feel all the more nervous. Same feelings I've had in the past. I'm sure they will disappear and I will be flooded by feelings of love for this little one and all my fear will go away. It's what happened with Anna.
I'm very grateful that we have gotten connected with another family who is traveling now. They have the same court date as we do, and are actually on the same long leg of the flight over that we are. It will be fun to experience the travel with new friends! It will also be a bonus to not be over there alone! We are even staying at the same hotel as they are.
I'm not looking forward to leaving the kids for a week. Cameron will be fine. He is actually heading over to a friend's hause for the weekend and will have a blast with him. Anna will be here at the house with my mom and Denis and will get all the one on one attention that she needs. School will take up their week and by the end of the school week, we will be home.
Anna doesn't like it when I leave though. I seem to be the security blanket in her life and when her security blanket is missing, she tends to punish people. Hopefully that will not be the case while we are away, but I'm kinda expecting it. She gets very emotional and a bit crabby. I'm hoping to keep in contact with the kids over the internet and with phone calls when we can. I'm sure they will be excited to see pictures of their new little sister when we finally get our hands on her!
I can't believe I will be on a plane in 4 days! It doesn't seem real!